I would be lying if I said that I never feel weak. In fact, sometimes I find myself asking God if He’s really got the right person for the calling I’ve heard Him whisper in my ear, since I was a little boy. I feel utterly unqualified, and at times, like a total embarrassment by how much I fail to walk on this earth according to the life He has called me to. Sometimes, I feel like God’s Voice has grown too quiet for my ears to discern and that I am light-years apart from Him. So what’s going on here? Is there something wrong with me?
Not at all.
You see, I have learned that what I feel is not who I am, because the essence of who I am transcends the realm of my feelings. I want to share with you what God has told me:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness” – 2 Corinthians 12:9
How exactly is God’s strength made perfect in weakness? For a long time, I thought this meant that my weakness made God’s strength to be clearly seen, ultimately getting Him glory. But when you really think about it, how can God get glory this way? How can God get glory by His children being weak and broken?
God cannot get glory out of the misfortune of His children. God is a father, in fact, The Father…and He only gets glory from the strength and success of His kids.
Now, God says that it is His Grace that causes His strength to be made perfect in weakness. How does the Grace of God accomplish that? The answer to that has everything to do with the purpose of God’s Grace. Quite often, God’s Grace is regarded as a crutch He has provided for His children to lean on, when they feel weak. But Grace is much more than that! Grace is an empower-er. It is purposed to strengthen us!
God showed me that there was a supernatural miracle that took place when I was born again. He revealed to me that His Grace was the catalyst in this miracle, who labored to empower the new me that God was creating to be exactly like Him! Do you know what this means? Well, the answer is pretty straight forward.
Is God ever weak? Never! Well then, neither am I.
This is exactly why I wrote earlier “what I feel is not who I am, because the essence of who I am transcends the realm of my feelings”. The essence of who I am is not hidden within this earthly body I’ve known with it’s baggage and weaknesses, but within the spirit-being that I am, born of The Holy Spirit to be like God. I realize then that as I begin to grasp the essence of who I really am, according to the work of God’s Grace, I find myself looking at a strength within myself that mirrors the very strength of God. Suddenly, I find as Paul writes that…
“…when I am weak, I am strong” – 2 Corinthians 12:10
What pleasure and freedom there is in knowing who I have become in Christ! I have been eternally strengthened by The Grace of God! If I ever “feel weak”…if I ever “feel like God is far and I can’t hear His Voice”…it’s not because any of those things are true, but because I have lost awareness of self. God has made me complete by His Grace. Truth be told, I am the same Hiz that I will be for all of eternity…and God can definitely get glory out of that Hiz ; )
You are blessed!